This is where I am today, feeling completely imprisoned. I have spend day after day inside, in silence, and alone waiting for my life to begin again. I am stuck in the midst of waiting, I hate waiting because patience has never been my something I possessed. Riley my husband has been working 65 hours a week not including traveling time, and before that if he wasn't working he was looking for another job and that has been going on for over a year. This has taken a great toll on me, and has become an astounding distraction for all other parts of my life. I am feeling as low as I can. After realizing that in order to get my life on a new path I would need to fix this major distraction and demand that he is home more. He agreed and now we are waiting til Tuesday to see how soon this will be happening. But here is the thing, I have refused to focus on any other part of my life until this particular issue has been resolved.
I am now waiting in desperation, I can't take much longer of this I feel like I am dying every day and every hour. So I sit and watch hours of television and sleep so I won't think! Of course that doesn't always help because after a few hours of tv I start to feel immensely depressed. Anyways I tell myself that this will change one way or another.
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